Thursday, August 4, 2011

"From now on I will tell you about new things that will happen."

I hate caffeine...I've been up all night because I enjoyed some Diet Dr. Pepper for dinner. I hate not sleeping for the obvious reasons, but my biggest problem is that I do all my "best" thinking while I lay awake every hour through the night....and by "best" I mean WORST!!! I dwell and worry and even sometimes get angry as I think on things that I shouldn't but don't have the clarity to stop thinking about. Well tonight my thoughts went to one of the usuals, fearing that we trust technology too much with our memories. We have a backup hard drive which houses ALL of our digital photos. From Brock and my first Christmas married in 2003 to the birth of both our children to our move across the country. All our friends, explorations, places we've been, our family reunions, our children's whole lives, other people's children's lives, etc. I lay there thinking, in one second, in a fire or theft or accident of some kind we could lose all of it! It's VERY unsettling to me to think about that. My thoughts then go to this blog. If I were to lose this blog, SO MANY memories will be lost! I have chronicled many things in our life on here, (though there is a MAJOR time gap in the recent past), including Reagan's whole beginning which I NEVER want to forget (though not ideal circumstances). Up until I went MIA on here a few years ago, I chronicled so much of her little life. And here I am, sending her to Kindergarten every day and my thoughts are regularly going to my memories of the last 6 years and I lay there thinking how in one second we could lose the bits of it that were documented.
So I grabbed my phone to "just check" on the blog and make sure all is safe and sound so I could move on with my fears, (ha ha). I type in the address....."Blog does not exist".....I pray calmly, heart starting to pound....I type it in again thinking, in my half asleep stupor I must have typed it in incorrectly and the letters are just so small at 4am! "Blog does not exist"....I am fully awake now and starting to really panic. I actually start pleading with the Lord....I "calmly" jerk myself out of bed and "calmly" run downstairs to the computer and type it in...same. Now my prayers and pleadings are audible and I don't even care if I wake all 5 sleeping adults and 3 sleeping children in this house, (explaining that is a WHOLE other blog post!). I go to my email and search for it. I find an email with the address and a HUGE relief hits me as I see that I typed the address panic subsides and here I sit.
My thoughts are now on 2 things, and I'm mad at myself for it....First, if I were to lose all these memories, how is it that I feel like my life would be over?! I feel like I'd be devastated like I lost my whole life. (As if the only link to my memories is in that little odd shaped black box called an external hard drive). And secondly, I think of the words "Blog does not exist." I was in a panic like if the site didn't come up, that meant my past doesn't exist?!
Jesus gently reminds me that first of all, He should be my focus at all times. He reminds me to keep an eternal focus. Not that having and keeping memories in the form of pictures, videos, blogs, etc. is wrong, but hanging onto them so tightly that you forget that this is NOT our home!
I love thinking back on all the things that God has done in my life, but I know that I am not to get lost in the past things because the Lord says, "from now on I will tell you about new things that will happen."
Isaiah 48:6-7 says:
You have heard me tell you those things.
Think about all of them.
Won't you admit they have taken place?
"From now on I will tell you about new things that will happen.
I have not made them known to you before.
Those things are taking place right now.
They did not happen long ago.
You have not heard of them before today.
So you can't say,
'Oh, yes. I already knew about them.'

Thank you Jesus for ALL you have done in the past, but keep me FOCUSED on what you are doing NOW and in times coming.

I love reminiscing as much as anyone else, but I don't want to cling to the past so tightly, especially to the good things, because I can get stuck there and not see what the Lord is wanting to do in and through me right now. I lose sight of visions and promises He's given me for the future. God certainly doesn't want us to forget about the past, He tells us in scripture to remember what He has done....but we should also be looking to the new things He is doing and remembering that we're not here on earth to get comfortable. We're here to be about our Father's business, not holding tightly to this earth....even the memories of our time here.

Matthew 6:19-21 "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

I want my heart to be ever focused on heaven, on my Father's work here on earth and having love for His people and His church.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Photo Session

Back in January we were honored to be asked to take part in a photography project for Michael Kitada Photography.
Here are some of the shots from that session:

catch up Part 2

okay, so this is the rest of Christmas and New Years...I'm so behind!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

another intermission...look alike contest

Just because this is fun to do!
So do you think Samuel looks like his mom?
Sam: a couple days old

Esther: a couple days old (sorry it's a bit's from 1978!)

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Monday, February 16, 2009


I never posted a happy birthday to my awesome son!





Happy 1st birthday my sweet Samuel! Mommy loves you!
I also missed my even Awesomer husband's birthday!
Happy 29th Brock! I love you more than life!

Getting caught up, part 1

So I'll try to get you all caught up.
Brock and I had almost 4 days of no kids with my family in Las Vegas! Brock's wonderful mom flew out to stay with the kids...have I mentioned before that she is AWESOME?!
It was such a blessing to get away and we are soooo grateful to my parents for paying for everything!! What a way to vacation! They are so generous and we think they're pretty awesome too!
Vegas: (I have more pictures, just waiting on some from other cameras...they'll be in Part 2)
Katherine, me, mom, Erin, Claire (will be my sister Feb.28th!), and Jessica

This is my Vegas luck! I put $5 in a slot machine and won $100!! I bought Prada sunglasses with it!

Love how Brock is smiling while me and my sisters look like cartoons!

Way too silly!

goofing off in a souvenier shop...we did a lot of goofing off!

We came home from Vegas on the 23rd, then on the 24th the 5 of us flew to VA to spend the holiday with Brock's family. We spent a week there with them. Brock's sister and husband even took that whole time off of work to hang with us! It was super cold (I know not as cold as where some of you live, but it was really cold for us!) We got to see other family in PA and MD was just a really fun trip, not restful only because we slept in the same room as the kids who don't think they need to sleep through the night when on vacation, whatever! It was an awesome Christmas.
That was the first holiday we've spent with them since we've been married. We had Thanksgiving with them when we were dating. It was the first day I ever met them and we left at 5am and drove in a Towncar for two days to Oregon. Good thing I fell in love with them right away (I'm told it was mutual...but with my nonstop talking I don't see how that is possible:o)
Here are some pictures:
It was cool to have Mama Bea flying with us

Samuel had fun trying to drink water from a cup...I think we had more fun than him though.

Sam's 1st Christmas!

His first stocking ...he was very serious about everything in it.

Hey...I didn't make it...but I like it!

Reagan hanging out with daddy and Grandpa

Where is Samuel? (his pj's look like Christmas wrapping paper)

Reagan and Uncle Joel with the birthday cake for Jesus!

we went out for a walk Christmas evening, it was and my girl!

Sam all bundled up...we did add the blanket to his legs

my sweet girl sees something she likes...

window shopping! a girl after my own heart!

Sheets/Johnson clan

we drove to PA to visit more family
Reagan got to spend some arts and crafts time with Ella

Riding the quad with daddy

riding with Grandpa too

playing in the!

those boys have to be up to no good...check out that scenery!
we spent some time in MD with MORE family!
Reagan and Torah with Great Grandma Mom-mom

sleepy Samuel with Mom-mom
So, blogger keeps messing up my post when I add pictures so I have to break this into two posts to preserve my sanity! Part 2 comin' at ya ASAP!